Dang. Someone from Harrogate, North Yorkshire has really been looking out for an update. I decided to take a few minutes and update, though sadly, even after all this time, I have nothing much to say. Work has been busy and at times frustrating, culminating with a bad mood episode last Friday during which I seriously questioned the worth of all my efforts when one takes into consideration that a pretty face and a hot body is all one may ever really need to get ahead in this life. So sick of it.
On the personal side...ha. Not much to say. I am trying desperately to lose weight for the millionth time cause I am really packing it on. I should be back at the gym by next week and hoping to double up on my efforts. I suddenly feel totally unattractive and I fear this is all contributing to plummeting self esteem, which ultimately contributes to a total giving up on socialising and connecting with new people. My friends have not at all contributed cause I initiate plans (if I don't, then noone else will), we make them, and then they break them. Case in point this weekend, where I ended up at home yet again, cause a simple outing seemed too much for them. I mean...seriously. The socialising bit is on pause...clearly.
This being said, nothing much has changed in the love life there either. I am still Single Sally, with no hope in sight for changing this status before my next birthday. My uncle says I need to start thinking positively about this and not always so negatively and maybe he is right but when I do, I seem to attract total undesirables - married men, worthless, cheating men, unemployed, parisitic men. How is one supposed to stay positive after that? Oh, not to mention the bi-sexual encounter last week where I met someone and she sent me a note the next day that was disturbing to say the least. I mean, if being a lesbian is my destiny then okay...she is not bad, but I still have these deep longings for penis as opposed to the other thing, soooooo.....no. Not at this time, girl.
Also looking forward to vacation. Desperately. The bad news is, it will not include Adonis as previously advertised. The good news is, I am so used to disappointment that this does not faze me in the least. It just means I need to come up with a new, Single Sally Solution. Tired of these solo vacations though - as fun as they can be. Just once I would like to share one with someone great and cuddly.
I truly wish I had some exciting updates for you all, but this is it. Sorry. But I will try to do better. If only the privacy options here were more conducive to people reading. I always feel like Big Brother is reading and it makes me less inclined to really get my feelings out. I seem to be too recognisable.
I was thinking of you earlier so it's great to hear you're still kicking. It's no good that things are somewhat 'blah' for you but they will improve, they have to, you're still way too hot to be left languishing for long even if you are a bit cuddly :-)
ReplyDeleteTry and have a good week.
The weight gain - arrggh! I need to lose 20 lbs again and wish I could find the energy.
ReplyDeleteGood luck on the job!
I spent most of my vacation hanging out with myself, but I didn't expend any effort into looking for a companion.
ReplyDeleteIf I am successful in losing the 15 lbs I have gained since I quit smoking, I'll let you know how I did it :-)